I am tired of writing about the rosy fantasies of life which are seriously a waste of time.So that is why I want to share with you something different, something real, something dark and menacing.I will make a confession that is very well-known, but only recognized under cover.This is to do with the porn industry that allures most of us at some point in our lives ( for those who say it doesn't..please visit a doctor ! )..anywaz, I have often wondered in disconnected thoughts why do people get into the porn industry with all the risks & infamy ?..money can be earned in better ways if we look at life from the financial side of things.But when I have seen people..talented people becoming victims to favouritism and exploitation in any given field..I have found the justification of why people join this industry.I have never turned my back on the acknowlegement that pornstars too are part of our society!
This brings me to a particular case of Michelle Anne Sinclair..aka Belladonna..the famous,millionnaire american adult actress ( I will avoid the term 'pornstar').For those who know her, would agree at once that a woman with a more deviant smile and perverted taste is hard to find.Michelle has been the lead actress in over 250 films till date and won multiple awards at the AVN ceremonies for her 'groundbreaking' performances in front of the camera.She owns a production house that is a powerhouse of money and fame for any aspiring adult actress.She personally hires starlets for new performances in her films ( ohh..did I tell you..she is a director too!).Michelle looks for new talents, hunts for the girls who can undertake maximum risks and have as perverted a mind as possible, because the 'customers' soon get bored with the 'old stuff' ! For all those who keep away from adult matters even at the age of thirty ( pun intended ) I would like to reiterate that this industry demands the best from its employees..yes, more than a private bank and so called MNCs..because it is not only to do with your work-life balance, it is to do with more.......
All of us who have seen Belladonna in front of the camera would agree that she is anti-christian for what she does and to the extent she goes to in order to do it.But the so called religious folks often end up commenting 'gross' or 'sinner..she needs to repent else Jesus can't save her from hell' only after they have thoroughly watched her videos. As you all know that any online video has a thumbnail picture to give a clue to the net surfer of what lies inside, it is surprising to notice that such religious folks fail to see the thumbnail so often and end up hitting the link on the video.Such is the world of men because of whom Belladonna is precisely the star that she is today. But did I say star?..let's study her childhood a little more in detail.
Michelle was born to an Air force officer with the US army and has two elder sisters.Her mom often insists that she was the best mother she could have been.Now interestingly Michelle when she was thirteen wanted to become a gymnast and trained for it very seriously.She was good in atheletics and other sports in school, albeit smarter than her classmates ( she is still way ahead in smartness, the adult industry has not made her a 'piece of meat' only..she is more than that ).At the age of fourteen she got molested by a boy much elder to her, bringing her face to face with the reality she never knew existed.Her mom hushed up on it. Needless to say, her dad being in the Air Force did not find it reasonable for this news to circulate.So Michelle too took down the bitter pill without any protest, just to learn that in a couple of years time, their parents would get divorced & the very paternal status she was trying to protect would only leave her to spend her future in poverty and misery.
Michelle would feel choked on her dreams of being a gymnast and started looking for income opportunities.She even worked for our beloved Subway to meet the costs of her sister's and her tution fees.Her life turned upside down and she was sent to stay with the church for completing her education.Now that is when she met somebody whose name was Bella, and consequently was promised a job with the fashion indutry in Los Angeles.Michelle took that step and at the age of seventeen made her first journey to the heart of a city that changes the fate of people in seconds.This is where things start going radically wrong in her life.
Her initial assignment was a nude photoshoot, denying which she was threatened to be sent away to her home where she was expected to earn money ! so obviously she stayed.This is where she met the most famous directors of the adult industries who show interest in her.The journey starts & she is asked to perform an incredibly risky scene just at the age of eighteen with a bunch of twelve guys who were supposed to make it rough & painful for 'viewing pleasure'! Michelle turns up intimidated at the spot and only discoveres what lies ahead just when the scene is about to begin. She decides to leave and runs out of the set only to be brought back by the associate director who threatens to send her nude photos to her family back home.Michelle stays and does what she is told to do.That scene which lasted forty minutes not only violates her body in every way possible but also her mind.She has repeatedly mentioned that it was that first act which made her lesser and baser than a human being.She spends the next one week in hospital healing from the wounds.
She packs her bags & runs to her home only to find that her mom or sister would not want her to be a part of their lives!She is even denied an entry to her own home.So she gets out, in the same dress and boards a plane for prague where she meets the same director that made her life miserable a week back.For those who know her, if you see the pictures of Bella waiting at the airport terminal, all alone, looking with blank eyes and then falling off to sleep before a flight that gets delayed by fifteen hours, you don't feel turned on...you don't think about sex...all that comes to your mind is...if Bella has eaten something whole day or does she need a warm place to hang around for a while to save herself from the freezing cold.
The next seven years bear testimony to the relentless effort she has put into in making films that have gone from ugly to downright inhuman.She is known to be extremely fit when it comes to 'difficult scenes'..which she gives credit to her childhood wish of learning gymnastic.Michelle steps into the adult industry as a megastar by performing a rather grisly & violent act which leaves her male co-stars baffled and wounded even.This time she does not go to a hospital, instead, gets her hair cut short and gets tattoos done all over her body.Michelle wins the AVN award for 'best actress in a group performance' for the same act which wounded her male co-stars and she is called upon the stage as 'Belladonna'- a poison woman.Rest is history and there would be few adult actresses who can boast of a more successful career than that of Belladonna.
Bella loves cooking, travelling, playing video games and reading love stories.She often breaks down in uncontrollable sobs on interviews when she says she has stopped feeling anything because what hurts most is when the love ends with the end of the 'act' before the camera.She is downright gorgeous, highly adorable and an excellent conversationalist...but every morning when she gets up she searches for that Michelle who got lost somewhere at that Prague airport..was it really there?..or where was it?..She looks at the mirror & imagines the baseball cap that Michelle used to look so good with.She never misses the Olympics and knows the medal tally in gymnastics by heart......when alone she still hears her sports teacher telling another teacher- "Ann would become a star gymnast some day"...she can smell the perfume Michelle Ann Sinclair used to wear...her fans wait eagerly for Belladonna to come out with a new twisted video...but Belladonna, sitting in the garden with her head on her knees, stares at the ground and thinks...what if it was all a bad dream?...what if she stops responding to calls of 'Belladonna', may be they are calling someone else? what if she has a family someday?..what if somebody would ask her out for dinner?..what if she gets up in the morning one day and sees Michelle Ann Sinclair looking at her in the mirror??....
But at nights she can't sleep and moans "Jesus! not in this life...but Michelle needs another shot..may be another time..in another life"!
This brings me to a particular case of Michelle Anne Sinclair..aka Belladonna..the famous,millionnaire american adult actress ( I will avoid the term 'pornstar').For those who know her, would agree at once that a woman with a more deviant smile and perverted taste is hard to find.Michelle has been the lead actress in over 250 films till date and won multiple awards at the AVN ceremonies for her 'groundbreaking' performances in front of the camera.She owns a production house that is a powerhouse of money and fame for any aspiring adult actress.She personally hires starlets for new performances in her films ( ohh..did I tell you..she is a director too!).Michelle looks for new talents, hunts for the girls who can undertake maximum risks and have as perverted a mind as possible, because the 'customers' soon get bored with the 'old stuff' ! For all those who keep away from adult matters even at the age of thirty ( pun intended ) I would like to reiterate that this industry demands the best from its employees..yes, more than a private bank and so called MNCs..because it is not only to do with your work-life balance, it is to do with more.......
All of us who have seen Belladonna in front of the camera would agree that she is anti-christian for what she does and to the extent she goes to in order to do it.But the so called religious folks often end up commenting 'gross' or 'sinner..she needs to repent else Jesus can't save her from hell' only after they have thoroughly watched her videos. As you all know that any online video has a thumbnail picture to give a clue to the net surfer of what lies inside, it is surprising to notice that such religious folks fail to see the thumbnail so often and end up hitting the link on the video.Such is the world of men because of whom Belladonna is precisely the star that she is today. But did I say star?..let's study her childhood a little more in detail.
Michelle was born to an Air force officer with the US army and has two elder sisters.Her mom often insists that she was the best mother she could have been.Now interestingly Michelle when she was thirteen wanted to become a gymnast and trained for it very seriously.She was good in atheletics and other sports in school, albeit smarter than her classmates ( she is still way ahead in smartness, the adult industry has not made her a 'piece of meat' only..she is more than that ).At the age of fourteen she got molested by a boy much elder to her, bringing her face to face with the reality she never knew existed.Her mom hushed up on it. Needless to say, her dad being in the Air Force did not find it reasonable for this news to circulate.So Michelle too took down the bitter pill without any protest, just to learn that in a couple of years time, their parents would get divorced & the very paternal status she was trying to protect would only leave her to spend her future in poverty and misery.
Michelle would feel choked on her dreams of being a gymnast and started looking for income opportunities.She even worked for our beloved Subway to meet the costs of her sister's and her tution fees.Her life turned upside down and she was sent to stay with the church for completing her education.Now that is when she met somebody whose name was Bella, and consequently was promised a job with the fashion indutry in Los Angeles.Michelle took that step and at the age of seventeen made her first journey to the heart of a city that changes the fate of people in seconds.This is where things start going radically wrong in her life.
Her initial assignment was a nude photoshoot, denying which she was threatened to be sent away to her home where she was expected to earn money ! so obviously she stayed.This is where she met the most famous directors of the adult industries who show interest in her.The journey starts & she is asked to perform an incredibly risky scene just at the age of eighteen with a bunch of twelve guys who were supposed to make it rough & painful for 'viewing pleasure'! Michelle turns up intimidated at the spot and only discoveres what lies ahead just when the scene is about to begin. She decides to leave and runs out of the set only to be brought back by the associate director who threatens to send her nude photos to her family back home.Michelle stays and does what she is told to do.That scene which lasted forty minutes not only violates her body in every way possible but also her mind.She has repeatedly mentioned that it was that first act which made her lesser and baser than a human being.She spends the next one week in hospital healing from the wounds.
She packs her bags & runs to her home only to find that her mom or sister would not want her to be a part of their lives!She is even denied an entry to her own home.So she gets out, in the same dress and boards a plane for prague where she meets the same director that made her life miserable a week back.For those who know her, if you see the pictures of Bella waiting at the airport terminal, all alone, looking with blank eyes and then falling off to sleep before a flight that gets delayed by fifteen hours, you don't feel turned on...you don't think about sex...all that comes to your mind is...if Bella has eaten something whole day or does she need a warm place to hang around for a while to save herself from the freezing cold.
The next seven years bear testimony to the relentless effort she has put into in making films that have gone from ugly to downright inhuman.She is known to be extremely fit when it comes to 'difficult scenes'..which she gives credit to her childhood wish of learning gymnastic.Michelle steps into the adult industry as a megastar by performing a rather grisly & violent act which leaves her male co-stars baffled and wounded even.This time she does not go to a hospital, instead, gets her hair cut short and gets tattoos done all over her body.Michelle wins the AVN award for 'best actress in a group performance' for the same act which wounded her male co-stars and she is called upon the stage as 'Belladonna'- a poison woman.Rest is history and there would be few adult actresses who can boast of a more successful career than that of Belladonna.
Bella loves cooking, travelling, playing video games and reading love stories.She often breaks down in uncontrollable sobs on interviews when she says she has stopped feeling anything because what hurts most is when the love ends with the end of the 'act' before the camera.She is downright gorgeous, highly adorable and an excellent conversationalist...but every morning when she gets up she searches for that Michelle who got lost somewhere at that Prague airport..was it really there?..or where was it?..She looks at the mirror & imagines the baseball cap that Michelle used to look so good with.She never misses the Olympics and knows the medal tally in gymnastics by heart......when alone she still hears her sports teacher telling another teacher- "Ann would become a star gymnast some day"...she can smell the perfume Michelle Ann Sinclair used to wear...her fans wait eagerly for Belladonna to come out with a new twisted video...but Belladonna, sitting in the garden with her head on her knees, stares at the ground and thinks...what if it was all a bad dream?...what if she stops responding to calls of 'Belladonna', may be they are calling someone else? what if she has a family someday?..what if somebody would ask her out for dinner?..what if she gets up in the morning one day and sees Michelle Ann Sinclair looking at her in the mirror??....
But at nights she can't sleep and moans "Jesus! not in this life...but Michelle needs another shot..may be another time..in another life"!
